I'm not really into the whole Facebook thing, but occasionally a name of someone I knew from years gone by will surface in my head and I'll do FB search for them. When doing that, I end up seeing their friends list which will often include other people I've known throughout the years. It's fascinating to see what they look like, what they've done with their life, and as an active Jehovah's Witness, I can't tell you how often I feel as if I'm being passed by in life all the while waiting on "new world" or the "new system of things" or "seeking the real life" supposedly right around the corner. It's very suffocating feeling in the sense that you feel the need to panic as if you're going under water and cannot swim but everybody else is able to tread it. It's very discouraging at times.
There's an old Geto Boys song I like called, Aint With Being Broke, and Scarface has a line on there that goes........
Without them dollar signs, it's like living and dying at the same time.
That's how I feel about being a JW at times. Granted life could be worse, could have a deadly disease, or be paralyzed, or be in Somalia, and I'm sure many would gladly trade their existence for that of my circumstances, but that doesn't mean being an American born-in JW is anything to brag about.